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Cough

February 24, 2011 in C

By Andy Zito


It’s ‘nothing to worry about’, but I do.

A colleague, conspicuously absent on Monday, arrives in the office Tuesday, coughing. A hacking, phlegmatic bark that says ‘get out of me, gunk’ and actively helps by way of the glottal stops that stop and stop, words not forming, just ‘huck’ and ‘huck’ and ‘cough’ and ‘cough.’

11 desks lined up, 5 on one side of the room, 6 on the other. Mine directly opposite, we sit back to back separated by only a small conference table, maybe a metre between us, probably less.

She comments to a colleague that she was sick enough to stay home yesterday, but will ‘get through’ today. My skin crawls. The psychosomatic tingles fill my glands as my throat begins to dry. Just a mild bout of hypochondria, I reason.

The office has no windows. Well, it does, but they don’t open. The air conditioner brings in fresh air, but it’s cooler today, so the unconditioned air hangs in a cloud, propelled over by tussis-fuelled aspiration, over my head.

She comments to a colleague that she was probably sick enough to stay home today but will ‘get through’. My skin crawls and my throat tingles. No, no, just the hypochondria again.

It’s nothing to worry about, but I really do.

I couldn’t get up this morning, the hypochondria was running riot. I thought about ‘getting through’ but decided to go to the doctor instead. He told me not to go to work.

“You wouldn’t want your colleagues to catch it, would you? How inconsiderate.”

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Time

August 24, 2010 in T

By Andy Zito


I’m working way too hard at the moment – it seems like everything I’ve planned to do in the next few days won’t be happening and I have no idea when I’ll find the time to do it.

I just need a little more time.

I get up in the morning and just go, go – I just get up and go, and my day begins almost with a momentum that I need to catch up to – my work happens and I eat, I fill the day with everything I have to do and think to myself, ‘if I have some time today, I’ll…’ and then someone comes in and asks me if I have any time.

‘Of course I have time, what do you need?’

I just need MORE time.

This week I got up and went on Monday, worked, ate, worked, ate, then it was time for bed. But I wasn’t home yet, so I headed that way and found sleep.

This week, Tuesday was the same, Wednesday followed, Thursday didn’t stop and Friday came and went. Saturday was too quick and by Sunday I didn’t know what day it was.

Now it’s Monday, I’ve done my work for the day, sure I started early and yes, I worked hard, but something happened today, something weird.

I was finished by lunchtime, and I came home.

I have some time today.

Now I don’t know what to do.

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Singing

January 15, 2010 in S

By Andy Zito

I do it to relax.
I do it to release tension.
I do it when I’m bored, and can’t think of anything to do.
I do it when no one is home, and I can be louder than I usually am.
I can’t stop thinking about it.
I think about it all day.
Then I get things going and it soothes my busy mind.
A few minutes some days, maybe hours.
If I get interrupted, I can usually pick up where I left off.
Every now again I do it in my car. Actually, lots.
Sometimes it’s embarrassing when you’re getting into it and you notice the person in the rear view mirror is laughing at you.
That doesn’t always make me stop, though.
I think even if I did go blind, I guess I could still do it, so that’d be OK.
I’d do it now, but I don’t want to wake everyone up.
That doesn’t seem to stop my neighbours who do it every single weekend.

What do you mean?
Oh, I guess you could read it like that.
No, I’m leaving it.